hidden fears

I’m worried about my mistakes. I’m having doubts about my work ability. Or maybe I’m just not suited for the job. I needed something to focus on, but it turned out to have that extra sensitivity around. I did what I needed to, say what I needed to, why doesn’t it all halt to a stop? Similarly, I’ve had the best of times and the worst of times, it isn’t fair to deny mi of all my efforts to pursue greater joy in life much less necessary. This post is random. Yena’s a walking contradictor.

Just the lately shit..

I love lunchtimes however I love knockoff times better! I got my moolahs but its all gone now due to all the expeditures that I have. I miss having moolahs to throw around. HA! Last week was much toned down except for phuture on wednesday and mos on friday night. This week we’re gonna blast through wednesday till saturday despite the daily heavy responsibilities thou. School’s starting in another two and a half weeks time and I’m sooooo looking forward to the block timetable and the unaccountable assignments…..NOT! HA!
I need to cut down on all the good food, the cab fares, the clothes, the alcoholy &, clubbing. I’m sorry I need to take down that part, its not very pretty I feel..HA! And the blog stats’ scaring the shit outta mi, LOL. Well, its another day down for mi, I’m going shopping!!:D

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check out the classics….

TOUCH’S MY NEW LOVE…….

ANOTHER DOPEEEE, the NEW IPODNANO SERIES……..

PLS GETITGETITGETITGETITGETITGETITGETITGETIT!
I’M GONNA GET IT!

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wishing for the impossible

I cooked last night. Awful experience. I think I would burn the whole kitchen down if mom was not around but the final product is EDIBLE and I’m so proud of it! By far, today’s the best day for work. 4’s on mc, 3’s on training, 1’s on business trip. I can’t describe how relaxing it is now la but I’ve got one tough nut left to crack. I so don’t feel like working my brains when its the holidays. I wish I had sch instead la. The moolahs are so bloody hard to come by and I rarely see them around. I’ve got debts all over and three major expeditures thats killing mi. Its the second wedplay I’m forgo-ing and weekends are a bore, why? I so swear I’m gonna play till I drop dead next month that is if only I had a billionaire dad,
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LUNCH TIME! heeheehehehee…

When you’re this close to insane,

I think I’m expecting far too much than I ever should. Sorry for being such a loser but I’ve lost all humanity. Save all your judgements motherfuckers.

I’ve been acting paranoid, dissing every possible person for their every act. I don’t know but little bits and pieces just throw mi off now. I’ve been acting like every single living organism owes mi a million and I really hate it.

all or nothing

Who do you turn to help when you need a hand? In cases of irreconcilable differences between them, you. But I knew everytime this happens, the aftermath would hurt a million. I chose nothing right from the start but I’m feeling the stung right now and I’m having a bad vibe on what’s gonna happen. I think the education system needs to be reallocate. Why do people can’t wait to watch the others fall when they themselves have bad times like this. Especially the young ones these days with absolutely no fucking bit of a single brain cell to even think about the consequences of their actions and its not like they don’t know how but they stubbornly refuses to do so. Sad to say I’mma major disappointment myself, I’ve lived it and dissed it. Our paths crosses but it was never to stay. After so much of it all, I am still at where it all started from…so is it all or is it back to nothing?

nice & slow

I barely got the time to slp lately much less blog the happenings. I’m sorry for taking this long thou at times I feel stupid having a blog with no updates but work’s been extremely busy and I’ve been sick all week thanks to my stupid drinking habit. ha! Been running a high fever since days ago and it went up and down like the bungy jump. I dunno what’s with mi but I’ve been feeling really lethargic still, even with the fever susidies. Plus work took up most of my time, I couldn’t plan to go anywhere else after work cause I’ll be too tired unless its for a major important dates like yesterday or for my license. I am so lack of slp la. How nice of mi to actually skip wedplay yesterday. I guess I really need to take a break and just slower down my pace. I am going on a vacation soon so check out frequently for updates on my vacation babes.

best damn thing

Driving’s fucking fun la mind you. I can’t wait to get to my pracs please. HAHAHAHAHAHA. I got my credit card done, my hair done, I’m so going wild this weekend with the usual routine that I’ve been looking forward all week. I’m finalising all my overseas trips this weekend. And they did up a new supermarket and LJS near my place. Awesome la. PLUS PLUS, THE SPICE GIRLS ARE REFORMING WHICH I’VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS DAY FOR UBERSUPER LONG SO GET READY………..

a decade since,